hi, i'm krystiana.

i just want to be the wildflower
that grows out of this bland crack in the pavement.

i just want to be the space cadet
that lands on the dark side of the moon
and can see without light.

i just want to be the bird
without wings who takes flight.

i just want to be the heart
that you hold in your chest,
guiding you through what
your brain can't do best.

i just want to be the cheshire cat,
to whom serious matters aren't a matter of fact.

i just want to be the walls in your room,
watching you sleep and watching you groom.


i know that i'm strange, not your average girl.
but what kind of life is it to be the one millionth pearl?
i'd rather be something that you can't explain.
i'd rather fill you with questions inside of your brain.
i'd rather be one step ahead of the pack,
even if that step is slightly off track.
i'd rather be somewhere that's beautiful to me,
than trying to be what's beautiful to see.
i'd much rather listen to the thoughts in my head,
than have others tell me who should be in my bed.
i'd rather choose what my head favors most,
i'd rather lose what my heart cannot hold.
i'd rather swallow a hundred seeds,
and watch thousands of flowers sprout out of me,
than be like anyone else but myself.
my greatest treasure in life is the wealth
that i find in the moments i truly discover
that i am seeing myself for what's under the cover
that most girls put up, oh, that front we show.
when in reality, it's better to know
who is under that mask, and what that person is hiding.
just show yourself, come out, and face what is frightening.